I'm not surprised that I've scored so badly for my EQ test. I know I'm someone who cannot control my moods and emotional. I tends to let it run wild even though I realised that people around me are unhappy with my attitude. Especially in the morning, my face will be as black as charcoal without knowing the reason behind it. When doing project, if it does not meet my expection, I will turn crazy again. So most of my friends will have the love-hate or hate-hate feeling towards me. I know I can do better but sometimes environment does play a big part too. When the environment is slightly noisy in the morning, my blood will boil and I feel like shutting the fuck outta these people. And ya, I'm super annoyed when I see lazy or irresponsible minorities who couldn't be bothered with their daily responsibilities and tasks.
The main purpose of typing this entry is to remind myself to stop the crap. I've gone from bad to worse and happiness is drifting further. I don't think I'm so fuck up in 2 or 3 years back. I'm no longer as happy go lucky as I used to be. Is it the price that we have to pay as we get older? I don't know. To friends who are able to tolerate my nonsense, I'm glad that you guys still treat me as a friend. I will change and that's the promise to you people out there.
Note: I'm not depressed or unhappy, just that I'm not satisfy with myself. Haha, so friends, don't have to console me.
This Never Happened Before...
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